Unforseen surprises

Through this whole cancer ordeal, I never thought I would return to work, or get bored and want something more for myself.  I was in survival mode, savor the time mode, stop and smell the roses mode.  But now that I have turned a corner, I have time and the mental capacity to think what can I do with my life. It is a strange feeling and it took alot of soul searching to figure out why I was unhappy with the present.  But now that I have identified this feeling its much easier to try and tackle the problem.  It all started when I found out that I wasn't going to die anytime soon (6 months or less), and had to start thinking about my future.  I was so caught up in the present that the future had no place in my thoughts.  If I dreamed about the future, I'd go spiraling down a depression that I knew was unhealthy because chances are that I wouldn't be around to full fill any of those dreams.  On top of that I lost two friends to cancer and I assumed I'd meet the same end sooner than later.

So as of right now, I'm in the process of figuring out what I can do with my education background that doesn't involve standing on my feet, working long hours and is minimally stressful.  So its a bit of a puzzle, but I'm up for the challenge.  I've already applied to edit manuscripts from home but I have yet to hear back from them on the job.  I can't wait to use my science background.  Parker is doing great at a babysitters 4 days a week for a few hours while I get time to myself and get some work around the house done.  This is sort of a pre-preschool for him and he's doing great.  We've found the perfect preschool for him (Heritage Christian in NL) and so I am excited for him to start learning in a social setting. 

My tumor markers are down 55% in 3 months, so that means I have 1/2 the volume of cancer I had back then, amazing news and on top of this great news, we are selling the condo and have a serious offer on it, hooray!  Being a landlord was not exactly the most stress free job I've had for the past 5 years, so I will be happy to be done with it.  Thanks for all your prayers, I know they help and have made a huge difference in my life.