Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Waiting for the next one

So despite having a great summer- fishing, swimming & biking in this hot weather, right now I'm frozen with fear waiting to learn what my rising tumor markers (again) mean.  Since surgery, my tumor markers hovered around 100, then up to 107 and now the latest is 129.  Yikes. I tried to push my oncologist to switch treatments after I saw the 129, but he said he wants to wait one more month before we do anything new. 

Today I called his office asking for an earlier appointment- as my hip (right over the first bone met) began hurting again. I'm hoping that I can convince him to call my insurance company and get them to pay for TDM1 off label for me.  It was only recently approved by the FDA, and from what I hear it still isn't official (?)  I've heard rumors that TDM1 is like 10,000/month, but thankfully insurance companies have to pay for it after the FDA approves it.  To use it as it was (or will be) FDA approved would be to take it with Taxotere (bye bye hair), but getting him to give it to me off label would mean he could combine it with any therapy.  TDM1 is a herceptin antibody with a chemo agent attached to it- so it is highly selective and highly toxic.  Currently I am getting herceptin, and taking oral tykerb and femara and no actual cytotoxic chemotherapy (which has been nice).  

Although I know waiting one month isn't going to change whether my cancer responds to TDM1- I am paralyzed with fear that it could jump to my brain, my liver or my lungs in that amount of time.  Plus I'm shocked that the anti-estrogen therapy hasn't been all that effective. I know by calling his office today- he'll probably set me up for another PET scan, which is torture on the nerves, but I'm willing to do that if it means I can get TDM1. 



Long story short, I'm in limbo- I think my chemo vacation is over and I'm waiting for the "go ahead".  Please say a prayer tonight- that my doctor finds "the one".